again??

I spent my sat night with my burger and drawing the Olympics emblem and the 5 mascots for my assignment..well it has been quite a long time i didn't pick up my mechanical pencil and draw like tat night..

It was so nostalgic..

I still remembered last time when i was kid..i used to be crazy and obsessed of drawing..i would doodle all my text books watever came into my mind during class..

I think i spent a lot papers just to draw..i mean more than "a lot"..

But as time passed by..routine is getting busier and more hectic compared to last time..

Sometimes i just wish i can lie down on the grass and hold on my pencil and draw watever i want..isn't it so nice where you can do so while enjoying the cool breeze and the humid of air..

Sometimes i wish i could spend my time on drawing just like solving questions..

However this is just out of my reality life..sometimes you just don't have the time to do it..




Just now..when my parents and uncle went back..i went to shower and had a nap..

A weird feeling for today's nap which was a bit familiar..

I think it's quite impossible for me to have my sickness for whole week and yet it's getting worse..

My body ached the moment i woke up and of course my flu and cough haven't fully recovered or maybe getting worse..hope not..

Tests are coming man!! nervous!! D-dayS for the following days..i'm not feeling well..



Damn!! i felt tat the promoter cheated me..he said the stain can be washed away and i tried this afternoon..so sad!! but nvm..i think have to wash few times and he can be trusted since he let me try the promotion items which the items are not allowed to try..











Ps : well trust someone needs no reasons but trust always can be a reason..

jerk..

Today i just went to shop at Time Square and bought 2 WC tees and watched "Money No Enough 2"..the movie was awesome..hilarious and MEANINGFUL simultaneously..

Yesterday i reached home at 8something and i had my mum cooking for my dinner..sadly to say everything i ate was tasteless and my mum forced me to eat panadol..luckily not cough syrup which will be a disaster!! drank warm herba tea which was very nice and slept at 11 something!! 1st time sleep so early..break my record maybe?? haha..

But sadly to say..some incident happened..
I was like a jerk really like one or maybe i'm a jerk..

Anyway HOME SWEET HOME!!

When one tells you one's problem and of course the one is expecting some helps from you..

When one is in trouble and you know tat..you should give the one a hand..

When you see the one who is in woes then you should approach the one to ask whether the one is alright or not..

But i'm a jerk..instead of approaching the oet i turned my back to the one..

Damn..it's so tat damn freaking HARD just to ask "hey are you ok??" or "are you alright??"

say..

Just wanna say tat..

"Am fucking tired now!!"

Hmmm..just to express myself when i can't think rationally..
tat's all..hehe..


Additional "credits" for today slight fever and diarrhea "GREAT"!! and the flu is haunting me back..

under control..

Today i just wanna say..i'm a good boy:

1. i didn't eat fried stuffs except fried egg (acceptable right??)
2. i didn't even touch my choc which i bought yesterday and it was in my bag all the time..
3. i didn't even think of TRYing to eat ice cream especially the mango flavour 1..
4. i didn't drink cold water or drink..
5. i didn't walk under the rain..
   

Just for today..actually i did those yesterday..shhhh..haha..

Instead i ate noodle this morning with an egg..lunch with 2 doughnuts and dinner with rice without FRIED CHICKEN!! so today i'm proud to say tat i can take care of myself?? *doubt* actually was being nagged by all my frenz "this 1 cannot" "tat 1 cannot" "eat this" "don't eat tat" ..

When i walked near the ice cream refrigerator just to 'CHECK' whether my ice cream has gone out of stock or not..they were starring at me like "yuhann~~ don't ever try it or else i'll finish all the ice cream tat you want so tat you can't have it even you're heal.."

OMG..it's so so so suffering where you can't even touch choc or ice cream when you have it right in your hand..remember wat m&m always says?? "not melt in your hands" something like tat..swt..

But i did it and i succeeded to control myself under the circumstance where my so-called frenz tried to seduce me by licking the ice cream and making the "hmmm" sound which i hate the most..FRENZ ya right..



Recently..i found tat the saying is really true "old habits will never die!!"

I wanna say tat i'm addicted in asking WHY and THINKING again..tat's the old me back in high school where i tend to ask why why why why why whenever i can't find a proof of a statement and i will keep quiet and mumble to myself for whole day which is quite scary sometimes..haha..i can even skip my meals just 'cause of thinking..SCARY huh?? haha..maybe it's 'cause i don't have appetite whenever i can't find a good explanation for my whyS..

Eventually..i spent last night i mean whole night thinking of the subshell and orbitals thing and guess wat?? my effort is not to avail..i'm 1 step closer to the truth but i still got lotsa whyS..sigh..

And i was scolded by people tat i'm stupid..swt..

Why can't i just accept something without thinking why?? weird and odd right?? haha..



Learned something new:

"uiee-Ba-ngo-jiu-ku-uiee"
*i'm sick take care of me*

correct?? Mich says tat i got the right tone or accent for this..haha..

and guess wat?? karen taught me this which is bad and mean words..

"nu-ei-teh-ngong"
"you're the most stupid or the stupid-est person"






Mean right??

cold..

This morning surprisingly i woke up at 10something..yeah..10something..so early maybe 'cause i'm not feeling well..

I ate nasi lemak this morning which i shouldn't eat 'cause my throat is in terrible shape now..don't scold me k..

Well..i was wearing my sweater for my whole sunday 'cause it's very cold and my desk again was full of tissue papers..i couldn't think properly today which made me quite frustrated but i kept myself cool..

I finally cannot tahan..i had my first hot drink in UTP this afternoon..1st time i finished my hot milo within half an hour..then i went to sleep AGAIN..haha..patient should sleep more right?? making excuses for my sleeping habit..

Amazingly my nose felt better after the milo drink *should have listen to someone's advice last night* haha..

But but but now it turns back into original state..sneeze all the time..



WAIT!! this is not supposed to be an emo post..haha..screw the sick part..

I just got the news tat Avril is going to come..yes yes!! jason is going and hopefully he can describe the feeling of seeing her in live!! omg..crazy of her eyes!!

And i had roasted pork as my dinner..i know i got sore throat and i ate chilies again..hehe..so basically i just screwed my so-called "patient menu" for these few days..

Tomorrow got physics and chemistry quizzes i think..so another D day..haha..




Ps : thx for DG for today's meals..

under weather..

Just now was soaked wet 'cause walking under the rain..we went to convo fair after our dinner and we were trapped at there for 2hours++

People suggested me to bring my umbrella along whenever i go out from my room..hmmm..i do have umbrella which bought by my mum..eh..look nice and untouched *shhh don't tell her about the untouched part*

But but but i just don't wanna use it..haha..

Come to realize..i have never used my umbrella since i was F4..although my umbrella was always in my bag..i mean all the time even during rainy days..weird right??

Maybe i got no interest in umbrella unlike all the girls or my roommate..ya my roommate always carries his umbrella..

And now the time is approximately 5am..my desk is full of tissue papers..maybe is the umbrella trying to tell me the consequence of not utilizing it..swt..

Hate running nose and now i'm in red 'cause i'm in my Alidas sweater..freezing..

Hectic recently..is all about tests quizzes and assignments..RIGHT?? no at least we got talk crap sometimes..i mean all the time..haha..

Study hard play hard..

Hope so..haha..ZZZZ...




Ps : don't ever sing "Umbrella" song in front of me *phobia*

KL here i come!!

You know wat?? friendster contains lotsa secrets..LOL..found many things tat i shouldn't know..perhaps..haha..

Man..i'm so so so so outdated..everything tat happened back in KL seems so near yet so far away..i got no idea wat's happening recently..but i somehow just can predict wat's going on..

SO next friday i'm going to update myself for sure..so watch out guys..

Going to have hair cut SOOOOON..cut my sissy hair so tat my frenz won't call me "yuhann~~~"..this time would be short..can't wait..

Going to shop in real soon..shop till you drop right?? haha..







Meanwhile..i just got a meaningful and interesting mail from my fren which make you reconsider over and over again.



A lady was waiting for her flight in the boarding room of a big airport. As she would need to wait for hours so a packet of cookies and a book would be a good companion to kill the time. She sat down in an armchair in VIP room and started her reading.

Beside the armchair where a packet of cookies lay a young man sat down and read his magazine. When she took the 1st cookie from the packet the man took after her. And she felt irritated and cursed him deep inside her heart "What a nerve if i was in the mood i would have punched him for sure!!"

For each cookie she took the man took one too but she said nothing 'cause she didn't wanna cause a scene although it was infuriating. Finally the last piece of cookie remained and she was wondering wat would he do for the very last cookie.

Surprisingly he took the cookie and divided it into half. The lady was so furious and took her book storm to the boarding place.

In the plane the lady was looking her glasses in her purse and to her surprise, she found untouched packet of cookies. It was too late. Ashamed and guilty came into her her mind. She was so wrong.

The man shared the last cookie willingly without feeling angry or bitter. It was too late after all. Apologize and explanation couldn't be made anymore.



There are 4things in your life tat you can't recover.

1. The stone after the throw.

2. The word after it's said.

3. The occasion after the loss.

4. The time after the it's gone.

damn..

Avril Lavinge's concert might be canceled due to some 'reasonable' reasons..how great..

I dunno how to react now when i browsed thru' jason's blog..happy or sad?? happy 'cause i can't go and when it's canceled then everyone will also can't watch the concert?? or maybe sad 'cause of she can't visit M'sia??

Dunno la..all i know is she is cute and punk..haha..and most important thing is SHE KNOWS GUITAR!! haha..lame excuse right??

I always think tat girls in guitar are more attractive and can kill guys in no second of warning than playing piano..

And and and..i saw james tan's frenster pics..haha..sweet man..so so so sweet..RIGHT?? haha..

Avril Lavinge is always cute!!

tongue tied..

Guess wat guess?? i just woke up and on9..

Another hectic week just passed..phew..a lot of things just happened which you can't even stop them from occurring and explain the whole process of the happening..

Recently the song Tongue Tied by Faber Drive just came into my mind all the time..the strumming part is so so so so AWESOME..and the lyric is damn true..hehe..

Wanna dl new songs..maybe Ryan Cabrera's songs?? damn..a bit sick of old songs d..no LAN here and wifi sucks..

But this week i manage to chat with my frenz back in KL..oh..i missed lotsa things!! it's so happening in KL and here..hmmmm..ehhhhh..ok ok la..haha..and my frenz even boasted tat his love life..wtf..so wat?? haha

Found something interesting in friendster..

1) Guys may be flirting around all day, but before they go to sleep, they always think about the girl they truly care about....

2) Guys are more emotional then you think, if they loved you at one point, it'll take them a lot longer then you think to let you go, and it hurts every second that they try.

3) Guys go crazy over a girl's smile(:

4) A guy who likes you wants to be the only guy you talk to.

5) Giving a guy a hanging message like "You know what?..uh...nevermind.." would make him jump to a conclusion that is far from what you are thinking. And he'll assume he did something wrong and he'll obsess about it trying to figure it out.

6) If a guy tells you about his problems, he just needs someone to listen to him. You don't need to give advice.

7) A usual act that proves that the guy likes you is when he teases you.

8) GUYS LOVE YOU MORE THEN YOU LOVE THEM!!!

9) Guys use words like hot or cute to describe girls. They rarely use beautiful or gorgeous. If a guy uses that, he loves you or likes you a whole heck of a lot.

10)If the guy does something stupid in front of the girl, he will think about it for the next couple days or until the next time he spends time with the girl.

11)If a guy looks unusually calm and laid back, he's probably faking it and he is really thinking about something

12) When a guy says he is going crazy about the girl, he really is..Guys rarely say that

13)When a guy asks you to leave him alone, he's just actually saying, "Please come and listen to me

14)If a guy starts to talk seriously, listen to him. It doesn't happen that often, so when it does, you know something's up.

15) When a guy looks at you for longer than a second, he's definitely thinking

something.

16) Guys really think that girls are strange and have unpredictable decisions and are MAD confusing but somehow are drawn even more to them

17)A guy would give the world to be able to read a girl's mind for a day.

18)No guy can handle all his problems on his own. He's just too stubborn to admit it

19)NOT ALL GUYS ARE RUDE!!! Just because ONE is RUDE doesnt mean he represents ALL of them *i like this!! not every KL guys are bad*

20)WHEN A GUY SACRIFICES HIS SLEEP AND HEALTH JUST TO TALK TO YOU, HE REALLY LIKES YOU AND WANTS TO BE WITH YOU AS MUCH AS POSSIBLE

21)Even if you dump a guy months ago and he loved you he probably still does and if he had one wish it would be you to come back into his life

OMG..late for tutorial d..bye..

gila!!

Hey you go..the old yuhan aka gilagila is finally re-appeared!!

Again..the forget-birthday incident happened!! this time is my eldest bro 1..swt..i know is my bad my fault..i find no excuse for myself..scold me if you want..swt..

But this time i don't know the wat's the consequence of forgetting it..i think nothing gua..if like last time where i forgot one of my frenz's birthday..tat time really taught me a "GOOD" lesson which i will never forget anymore..

Wanted to sms or call my bro but no credit..don't ask why..damn sad and pathetic..no money..

However i'm not tat idiotic..so i sent an offline message to my bro..hehe..a sincere 1 k..or maybe not..at least i tried my "BEST" to wish him in such situation where i'm located in such ulu place and no credit to call..

I think i'm good in consoling myself just to cover up my own mistakes..hehe..tat's why people doubt me so often..sigh..

My sleeping habit has revealed by itself even i didn't summon it..during the day i like to sleep..but at night i'm so active..someone even calls me an owl..

In the term of DOTA they called me "night stalker" which i got no idea at all..but the name is kinda cool and is about "stalking" again..i think i can never escape from this word forever..

Panda eyes are going to appear..but i won't give a damn on it d la..

Got a lot of incidents happened..like today during the physics tutorial dulan betui..about the vector thing..arghh!! still geram of it..don't ask..but i still LOVE physics where you need to think and squeeze your brain a lot..

And i screwed my Engineering Math's quiz..how great..i know how to do but i got no time to do..find no excuse for myself..just blame sendiri tak buat laithan..swt..KUMONNNN..

Tomorrow is another D day where i'm going to do my chemistry lab..if i screw whole thing..means DULAN la!!

Wed will be another D day where Thinking Skill test is going to be held in lecture hall 1..

So every single day is not a peaceful day..pity right??

Nvm..cut the crap..i think my roommate is seriously cursing me like hell deep in his heart 'cause the light is still on and he can't sleep "soundly" and stop him from dreaming something or perhaps someone..haha..



Ps : hate wearing white tee!!

dulan..

Yup..i didn't use this word for long time or i didn't actually use it before..maybe 'cause few years back i was quite courteous..please don't doubt me for this time only..

Arghh..living dulan-ly these few days..lazy to explain and elaborate..

Ignorance is bliss..

For current moment..i finally got my absolute moment just with my PC in front of me..damn..i miss the moment back in KL where i can do watever i want..

Thinking my status of my room now..it's just like Malacca for the past few decades where all the people around the world gathered..of course my room is not tat strategic till all the international students wanna have some conference inside but everyone who passes by tends to come in and lepak in my room..

Well..sometimes i just want people spare me some privacy..

Feel like turning on my music to max volume till i pekak!! or maybe drive to a unknown place where no people can bother or bug me by calling me "yuhann~~~" with the sissy tone..

GUYS just gimme me some privacy!!
desperately need it..

drummer or guitarist??

This thing just comes to my mind since i get along with a drummer frequently..maybe..

DRUMMER or GUITARIST??

Currently i'm so into the drum beats and think tat the music without drum beats is just like a music without its soul..so i admire those drummers a lot..swt..and they are cool when they are playing and swinging their heads maybe with their long hair as if they've taken extacy..haha..

Whenever i ask my fren to teach me to play drum he surely will say tat playing guitar is better "at least guitar can play alone" according to him (tat's right but drum is also awesome!! without drums bands will not appear!!)

Being solo the guitarist or being the background music the drummer?? tat's the question i always wanna know from others..

In life guitarist symbolizes the ones who can perform their lives solo and on the other hand drummer represents the ones who can support others to perform better in life..

It's undeniable tat the ones who can live so-called "independently" in their lives can perform well in society and always acknowledged by people..

Simultaneously the ones who supports others to perform better are existed also..they may seem invisible but the fact is they are contributing to the world..

Just like in those famous movie in theater..the public often gives compliments to the actors and actresses about how good is their acting skill or wat so ever but have we ever thought of the contribution of the director..producer..script writer for the production of the movie??

So i just wanna say tat no matter who you are in your FAMILY or in SOCIETY..you are playing your own vital role in your and others' lives even you're not the one who is always "visible" to others..sooner or later they will feel your existence..

DRUMMER or GUITARIST??
both of them are fairly good without any doubt..

for no reason..

To make things clear here..i hereby clarify tat i'm not GAY or HOMOSEXUAL!! i hate this and i'm not insulting those people..is just tat i'm not the one tat you guys think!!

Nvm..screw tat part..today is another happy day of mine..don't ruin my happy day and i'm not happy because i got the best speaker..sometimes people get happy for no reason like my current situation..

I still remembered tat i told my fren tat i can't laze in UTP but situation has changed..you'll believe me if you knew me for long time..

I didn't wax my hair and shave for 1 week..OMG!! if Agnes hears tat..the 1st thing she says is "yuk suan"..

But surprisingly..my beard and mustache are not growing rapidly..i wonder why..is the food here makes my hormone imbalance?? if so i rather fast for weeks..

Actually there is another reason i'm lazy to shave 'cause last week i cut myself and the bleeding won't stop..and i was holding tissue all the way to IRC yet the bleeding won't stop..

Some1 suggested me to go for laser surgery..i was like..stunned for mins..tat's for sissy 1 k..even those sissy also won't go for tat..

Tomorrow have to shave d and i got tutorial in the morning..i don't wanna hold tissue paper all the way i go to the class..hemophobia??

See it clearly..is H.E.M.O.P.H.O.B.I.A not H.O.M.O.P.H.O.B.I.A..not a typo k..

Oh ya..today i slept in IRC for twice so syok sleeping in air-con room and my engineering math lecturer finally notices me!! damn..am i tat invisible to him??

mixture..

Today was happy excited blurred and exhausted..don't really wanna talk about the debate 'cause i got no idea at all wat was going on just now..

I can't recall anything..memory lost for short-term..

For years i've been observing people and now is the turn of others to observe me..i was like wat the..so not used to it man..need some time to adapt to the situation of being observed..

To be frankly am i tat mysterious as if i'm the phantom of the opera tat no one knows his true identity..

Why everyone wanna know about me so desperately?? i mean i'm just a normal guy..

They even question me about wat type of girls i like..sigh..speechless..

Am being "stalked" !! so stop calling me stalker..




Recently i only realize tat molestation can happen to guys too!! wow..surprisingly i'm the victim but not the molester!! don't get me wrong..

Molested by guys (my frenz) till i made an assumption tat homo guys are surrounding me..

I started to doubt my gang whether they are straight or not..should have valued them the 1st day i came!! damn worried now..

So can i say tat i'm attractive to those homo people?? swt..useless statement just being stated..




Things tat easily get addicted in UTP..

• washing machine : i can't stop myself of using the washing machine 'cause my hands are tired to brush my laundry and the brush spoil my clothes too!!
• cap : i seriously lazy to touch comb and wax my hair so wearing cap can cover up messy hair..i didn't wax my hair for 1 week d until today..
• sweet or candy : when you tend to "fish" in lectures or tutorials sweets always be your most welcome company especially the Xtra Sour Candy tat can wake you up in no time..

Hectic and tired yet fun..this is how i describe my life here..

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