To the one who once said I was the reason :) Thanks.

Today was indeed crazy. I am so worn out. Last night was terrible, too many things were going on in my mind. From projects to test, and from presentation to interview. Yes, I am having my interview next week. Everything is coming to me at one time. I am just so tired. My priorities are in a mess now. When I was having test, I didn't even think that I was thinking for the answers. My mind was just wandering at somewhere. For the first time, I do not even care how I score in the test. Part of me has given up. Just need a small break. A small one is suffice. 

On a side note, sometimes I do think dogs are lovely creatures. No matter how many times you ignore them, they will always welcome you. At least, today a dog accompanied me when I was walking to the test hall. Hopefully she will be alright before anyone chases her out.

There are times you made bad decisions. And you just feel so regret that you wish to go back to the moment before you made the decision. But, that's not reality. Bad decisions perhaps are the worst thing you can encounter in your life, but they can be the best thing happened in your life. The bad decisions are just like failures. They taught you great lessons as if you burn your finger, then only you get the message that playing fire is dangerous. You knock on hard on your face on the floor and you will be more careful when you walk.

And yesterday was one of my bad days. It took me 3 years just to understand a simple concept of the relationship among people around you. 3 years just to know letting go is not that hard. And 3 years taught me that there is something more important that just holding up on a relationship. It doesn't matter how long does one take to understand, at the end, it matters more that you learn the lessons. 

Just a mistake, just a message and just a few words. They give impact to everything. You can't get back the stone that you threw and of course you can't take back the words that you said. What is more important now is the afterwards. Just give it up the thing you held on to for so long because of few lines? That's ridiculous. There are something far more important. And I shall make things better.

Today little part of my heart died. The feeling is so familiar, but it is certainly not the best feeling you want. 

It is like you've expected you gonna flunk your quiz or test, and in the end, you got low marks, you still get upset where the disappointment shadowed your preparation to expect the worst. At the end of the day, you will spend whole night thinking what you could have done at the 1st place.

3 years and now it goes back to the starting point. I guess that's a life cycle.

death????

am no fan of chinese song but this is too awesome to listen=)

yooo wonder how many will read this..

hahaha..

have been abandoning this blog ever since i am into my 2nd madness of science..

but tat blog is to show photos..

this 1 is still remain to speak for my life..

been busy for the past 2 weeks..

awesome and thank god i am alive..

had a narrow escape from the earthquake..

hahahaha..

despite of that scary news..

there was another terrifying experience in bali too..

don't worry i am back in one piece..

let me cerita sikit k..

it was the 2nd nite in Kuta..

jeremy suddenly said got bombing in Jawa and bali is now in alert..

for a sec..

even though it was just a news and i was really shocked..

like why now?

BTW bali was safe from bombing throughout the trip..

OR we were safe from bombing throughout the trip..

well it doesn't matter =)

after this trip..

i have a question in my head..

if i die, how would you all know?

my family doesn't really know most of you..

and what if my hp dies together with me..

they got no contacts of most of my friends..

so so so so..

i think FB will do his work..

like status updated "yuhan died"

hahahahaha..

chill just a thought..

right?

do visit my 2nd madness of science =)

life

Well it is almost come to the end of this semester and the long awaited 4-month break is so near! Now, i am considered free from event stuffs already except for the assignments, tests and quizzes.. And to be frank i am seriously not used to the life recently where i am suddenly free from the workloads.. Haha don't get me wrong that i wanna rant bout how free i am right now.. Just that i am not used it.. Instead of doing nothing i did something random over the weekend to kill some of my time=D

I know it is gonna bore you but it was totally a random photoshooting at night..

And I dunno whether it is a waste of time or not but for the whole night i get only 3 satisfying shots=D

Here you go..

Last but not least my favourite..

Don't boo me for liking this photo so much..

And i edited this photo with some blur effect on the top region of the photo..

Somehow i just simply love the arrow=D

to-do-list

Suddenly i got the urge to write down my to-do-list during my 4-month break..

I think this will bore everyone 'cause it is all about my camera=D

1. get my flash
2. get macro attachment (maybe)
3. do street photography=D
4. do light painting
5. make 1 album on hands (so gonna do this)
6. family portrait
7. finish everyone's presents
8. do high speed flash photography (motion-static photos)
9. learn landscape photography (especially night scenery)
10. learn photo editing
11. travelling (bali and phillippines hopefully)
12. sand art (provided i got sand)
13. macro photography (if i buy 1)
14. photoshooting with ann
15. print my photos
16. monochromatic album

Hahahahaha..even though the list is till number 16 only..but i think i am so so so ambitious to think that i can achieve all..

Well is 4-month break=D

Before i end *drum roll*

still can't stop loving this shot!

after long time planning and finally it is done=D

This is just a super duper random post..

Don't say i didn't warn u before hand..

Recently was so busy with ETP (Engineering Team Project)..

And tomorrow my group will gonna have our presentation to our sv at McD..

Cool huh? god knows why my presentation is at McD..

On the other hand, this coming wed will be ETP presentation to the judges of UTP..

The marks of this presentation is almost half of my coursework and mind you this is a THREE credit subject..

So extra care is needed..

1st thing comes across my mind is the appearance during the presentation..

That is my hair!!

yeah i do not know how should my hair be on tat day..

Tat's the reason i post this pic in this particular blog post..

Let's us see it from the top left and go with clockwise direction..

1. mohawk

2. mohawk non spiky version(reference Neon Tree's lead singer)

3. normal comb side way (but have the possibility turn out to be pineapple hair)

4. 50:50 ratio which is like a pineapple..

Well..

I am still choosing so gimme some idea!

BTW number 4 is posted for the sake of wanting to have 4 in the picture..

And wish me luck for tmr=D

Food For Thought

Warning: random post

Sometimes watching some movies and series really make think about your life. I have just finished one old series, Flash Forward and it really makes me wonder. What if you know your future?

For decades, all sort of prophecies have been made just to quince their thirst to know what their future gonna be. However, the funny thing is this series shows us the behaviors of people after knowing their future.

What if you know your future? At first I thought it would be great as I was influenced by the media showing the shows that scientists invent time machine to avoid bad incidents in the future from happening to the world. Again, what if the future is meant to be happened in that particular way? Where you cannot do anything about it?

The combination of these two what-if questions really creates lots of conflicts. One can never imagine how much impact can be caused by taking a glimpse of your future.

In positive way, let say you saw that you won the jackpot of the year. Will you build a bigger save or vault to keep all your future money?

Or seeing yourself in a red sheet flying around and saving the world? Will you start designing a better superhero costume?

However, there is always negative side. What if you saw something more horrible like seeing yourself killing someone whom you know or love. What are you gonna do knowing that it will definitely happen?

Or seeing yourself sitting at the funeral of your next to kin? Will you tell him or her that they gonna die soon?

Well, what I think is sometimes things are meant to be unknown for a reason. Will you wanna take a glimpse of your future? Think twice. And the series is hanging there without a season 2 which is so so potong steam!

Something you might NOT know about me

Hey people, it is 12pm and I am sitting in front of computer with my messy hair. Don't worry about bad breath 'cause I have just brushed my teeth and washed my face. Judging from the title, actually i wanted to post this article long long time ago, but it seems that my laziness or busyness has taken over me and here you go.

Everyone has their own style of doing their works, what do they like and what they don't. You can't just change one person for what are their favourites and what they dislike. All these is built and shaped throughout the journey of their lives and i guess many of you do not really know who am i=D

First and foremost, I like to draw. Yeah i know many people like to draw, but what you guys do not know that i rarely colour my drawings. Not that i do not like colours, in fact i like to combine colours, it is just that colouring is a very tedious work to be done. So, I will always find alternatives to make colours of the things i draw. Very simple 1 that is colour papers.

Being an engineer needs accuracy in measuring. However, i do not like to measure stuff especially drawing stuff with measurement. I am okay with measuring things like weight and volume of fluid in lab, but i do not like to measure length, width , height with rulers. I prefer free hand which makes things easier and not restricted.

Talking about free hand, i think this might be related to me in planning and executing plans. Personally, i don't like to plan at all 'cause i will never execute my plans accordingly. Instead of that, i will always put a big picture in my head and work the ways as things come to me. I know it is inorganize and risk is high, but sometimes i do plan for the sake of reducing the risk=)

Well, i think there are more to write, but i am kinda stuck here 'cause i am not good in writing.

So, maybe next time if got chance i shall longer and more about me.

I began the journey of this sem knowing the rejection of SEP..

Maybe i screwed up somewhere which i didn't even realize it..

So the America DSLR dream has gone..POOFF..

It is a short sem and yeah next week is my final..

Time flies and my pace can barely catch up..

Although next sem is supposed to be a retirement sem and i still have 3 events..

Hopefully everything will be fine..

Like seriously the worrying part can be a killer which everytime put you in a depression mode..

Concern about this, worry about that..

Coming wave by wave like never ending..

Looking at the bright side..

There were a lot of happy moments..

Well well i shall start with my CNY celebration..

I think it is 1st time we celebrated at home and it was fun..

Like everyone in the family was there..

Especially my bro and i get to play his games with his laptop=)

And of course i cant forget the moment i gambled with my frens..

Do not mention the losing part but it was so fun being together..

Next highlight would be my 1st couple and portrait shooting with Ann, Rayson at lake garden and Karen in UTP..

LUCKILY my modelS did not complain about the UNprofessional skilled camera man..

To sum it up..

It is not like as you see in the photos..

The process can be tiring, hot and come to frustration when you can't get your shots..

Here are some favourite photos of mine=)

This sem i have been taking photos in so many events..

RSF, FESCO, ICN, Childpro (vivian will be mad with me)

And there were other photographers too..

One thing i noticed is that i can always relate we (who take photos) are like flies..

Whenever there are something eye catchy, we will like a bunch of flies gathering there..

Haha chillax just a comparison k..

Don't get offended..

And i got so much experience by taking all these photos..

RSF

FESCO

ICN

ChildPro

Of course the climax of this sem was the winning of "designer's bag"..

Don't ask me why i say designer's bag 'cause this is what my roommate called it..

My photo was chosen as the winner of the Canon Photo Tutor competition..

The moment was so awesome when you get to know you won't something outside of UTP..

Haha i have bought my cam for 1 and half year already and finally got some results=)

Still it is not a perfect shot..

It has its own story and enjoy my last 2 photos=)

Hardship in life..

Indeed it is a fun sem..

I am busy but i prefer that way..

If in 10 years time..

When i look back to my youth time..

At least i can answer that i did achieve something in my uni years..

I am busy for something..

Something more than the achievement in the resume..

which is the experience you gain..

the path you go thru'..

good luck everyone and my 1st paper is on my birthday..

kalau nak prank don't too hardcore yeah..

'cause i had bad experience having paper on my birthday..

Ps : i have not gotten my crumpler bag yet=( DCM cepatla..

jewelery

got this shot just now..

right before i head to cambodia next morning..

taken by canon 50mm f/1.8..

cheers people..

see you all one week later=)

CASFUMAL kick off afternoon?

1st of all..

i wanna apologize that i cant remember your names..

secondly this kick off day really is an indication that it is time for NEW LENS!!

my senior and my partner=)

MONOCHROMATIC photos..

FAVOURITE photo of the day..

abang chan..

eng dao rite??

girls don't even think of anything..

or else karen gonna kill you..

yea he is unavailable..

Do you notice i din put any caption..

'cause i dunno their names..

but they are simply amazing..

i am really looking forward for coming CASFUMAL..

trust me it is worth to join..

NEW LENS NEW LENS!!!!

prime lens..

lalalalalala~~~~

and no editing is done on the photos..

originality 100%..

my weekend

Finally study week has started..

but it can be a good sign that our sem break is a step nearer to us..

and of course the Cambodia trip..

i am so gonna buy a prime lens before i go there..

So my weekend was spent in ipoh as usual..

it has been awhile since the last time i visited jusco..

missed out lots of movies and shoppings..

1st of all i had my hair cut..

ryan said the saloon only provide pai kia (bad boy) hair cut..

well in the end he went for hair cut too..

this time i leave my hair behind long..

which hopefully tmr the interviewer will not mind..

Before i went for hair cut..

we had the famous curry noodle in ipoh old town..

this time i ate in different shop..

but the curry not gao enough..

a little bit disappointed..

but..

we had nice egg tarts and nice curry puffs too..

which was selling nearby only..

slurp slurp..

these are the attendeessss..

edmund..

jeremy yang gembira..

ryan..

1385 yang acting cute..

and to forget the drive thru' tau fu fa=)

After our brunch and haircut..

we went to buy groceries for study week..

and for the 1st time of my life..

someone called me fat..

hahaha..

it maybe a compliment yeah i know i am thin..

who cares?

it was a yakult promoter..

'cause i was buying my favourite purple vitagen..

and she is like saying yakult is low fat less sugar stuff..

and somehow get into the i-am-fat conversation..

but in the end i bought gooddays mango juice instead of the two..

Walking back to jusco i found out that they have this fish exhibition..

to be exact is fish-reptiles-pets exhibition..

snapped some of the amazing battle fish..

i dunno wat you call them but all i know is they fight..

all of the sudden..

we spotted cute little tortoises which are even smaller than our palms..

and since my roommate is a tortoise lover..

those boring kinda pets..

and yeah we bought him 2 tortoises..

a male and a female with the hope of having more tortoises..

so that everyone of us can have one=)

cute bunnies are sleeping..

so tempted to buy one..

see it is super small..

this is a little lady..

see the pattern..

on my hand trying to runaway..

After buying all this..

we went to pdi to buy cardigan for ryan..

and my summer wears..

but in the end never bought 1..

'cause my fren also got the same shirt..

so tak beli..

went for movie, takers..

funny..action-packed..lame..

but overall it was ok..

i am getting tired already..

let me finish fast by ending few photos of Euphonious 2010 appreciation dinner..

the winners for the best summer wear of the night..

though i missed some but these are some of the winners..

Lastly..

my pai kia hair cut..

whatever and i wanna take a nap now..

sekian terima kasih=)