some random photos..
everything is just too late..
watever..
it doesn't matter anymore..

Dream can be terrible..
I need a break..
I am very scared..

I am really happy for others
but i am sad
it is contrary
i just dunno why

I tried to be very busy to keep my mind from thinking..
Perhaps it doesn't work..
This week was indeed busy and packed..
But i never failed to recall everything..
Even the music blasted on me..
I'm not tat strong..
Sorry..
I miss you very much..

FML

This morning started with a good mood..
Hoping to eat the chicken rice which is super duper nice..
Before that went to ask bout renewing my IC and they said they need more than 2 weeks..
Okay i wasted my purpose of wearing the collar tee..
Went to banks with mum and only realized adults visit banks so often..
My mum said adults have to count their money very often..
Fine then we walked to the chicken rice shop thru' petaling street..
Who knows we saw the bomba van..
Ya it's a van in red colour..
Didn't bother at all and continue walking..
Saw big karipuff which long time never eat..
Planned to buy after the chicken rice..
Walk towards the end of the shops..
And saw the ashes and smokes were all around the street..
Coming from a shop..
And EDIBLE chickens were seen just beside the source of the smoke..

G.R.E.A.T.

Ps: i have enough d and i'm tired..please stop!!

i love this pics very much..
but my tears just won't stop..
sorry I'm not tat strong..
i wanna go somewhere tat no one knows me..
just me and my cam..
ya..
we broke up..
i hate myself..
don't ask..
please..
i'm not tat strong..
i'm guilty..
dun ask me ok or not..
you will just remind me how ugly i am..
i'm ok but i'm not..

People this is wat i did during the 1st night of my cam bought=)
It's slow shutter (bulb)
Tripod and handphone were utilized=)
This is just a testing shots..
Mainly for fooling around only..

my love for my baby=)

red lovey heart for baby panda=)

an irregular "O"..

tak macam star langsung=)
haha..

it was supposed to be an OMG..
but but but..

I love the arrows..
Inspiration for this came at the end before the batt dies..

Ps : these are been photoshop-ed =) colour balance, brightness and contrast..

Sorry guys, have been busy with my "assignment"..
Haha, so 1 day i told myself..
"Do i really wan my camera to collect dust?"
Hell no!!
Then i grab it and went to my so-called yard to take some photos..
And i found out exposure meter which is extremely useful..
Still got long way to go=)

this is a type of fern-leaves i think..

it always reminds me of the milk powder=)

actually it was a bit over-exposed but i wan it to be in the lime green=)

i never knew that my mum actually got this flower..

it's not under-exposed and it's due to the ambiance lighting..

layu d not enough water..

this is over-exposed but somehow i like it..

dandelion-like plant (bile's favourite)

focus off aikzz..

i like this..

this is obviously over-exposed and have no subject in this pic..
but if you can observe carefully you can actually see a fly on the leaf..
just like a bug's life=)

some plant=)





That's all..
Hopefully i didn't discriminate DSLR=)
Cheers ppl=)

Ps : all these photos did photoshop-ed before, but they are only added with the brush i did (my name and the cute creature) at the either left or right bottom corner, other than that are orginal

F.I.N.A.L.L.Y

Present you Canon EOS 450D..
Just so you know, this cam caused me to save up my money for 3 sems..
Well, after having egg-and-vege meals for the sem..
the effort finally paid off!!
So, let me tell you the story of the wonderful Monday..

I woke up quite early that morning..
So it happened that the reminder of asking for the price of the camera pop out in my mind..
Then, i browsed thru' the forum and dialed up for the shop's number..
I actually called 4 or 5 times to confirm everything whether the camera is REAL or not with the surprisingly cheap price..
I called Ritchie and he said ok..
I called my mum and she said she can pay using her credit card..
And they do not charge any extra charges on credit card payment..

This is wonderful but it was the last one in the shop..
My mum said gonna purchase on tue 'cause she did not have her credit card..
So, I tell myself,
"If you are that unlucky, then go for Nikon 3000D."
Actually is a self comforting while watching 2012 in my pc..
Yeah i gave up watching it in cinema..

Suddenly, my phone rang and I thought is baby..
Guess who was on the line?
My mum =)
"You wanna get it today or not? If want get the credit card and meet me at the AIA building."
Okay, my mum is so efficient..
"Ok, why not? but I have tl dial up to confirm for the availability."
I was so nervous while calling the shop..
And again my mum is so efficient!

Thank God that they could reserve the cam for me..
I went down and sms-ing all my friends to check the camera whether it is ok to buy or not?
And P.O.P..
My DSLR is just on my lap=)

Ps : my baby panda gonna be my fulltime model=)
PPs : I still owe my mum money (RM 2450)
PPPs : I played something interesting last night..
PPPPs : Please remind me to register for the warranty! haha..

And mind you this DSLR is not my baby..
I have only 1 baby=)

the year..

Throughout the year we've been together, lots of memory were captured and remembered. Not matter the good ones or the precious ones or the bad ones. Good and precious ones always a treasure to many people but they are often covered by the bad memory. I admit that I have not done my responsibility well as a boy friend of my baby. Lots of mistakes and stupidities have made the tears. Indeed, I'm not a prefect yet a good one.

I always wanted to find excuses to bring my baby for a walk for the night. I was such a fool who couldn't understand my baby at all. All she wanted is the time of me and her. That's all. However, my baby did not angry for my ignorance, she put her sadness into herself and did not show it to me. Tears were fallen and heart was broken from time to time. And my eyes were blinded like a fool who could not put myself in her shoes.

I was and am self-centred. All I thought was just my feeling and not others'. All I asked all the while why is she not caring about my feeling whereas I also didn't care about her at the same time. I always get frustrated why wasn't she replying my messages, stupid me, I didn't even have the right to do so at all.

My baby wants a short hair and boy's outfit, but sometimes I do not agree with her. Come to think, why should I care? Cannot cut short hair la, wear skirt or dress la and all those non-sense. Do they necessary to make her as my baby? No! Even she wanted to be a boy so much and I would just answer, "I don't mind being a gay=) " Even if she wore guy's outfit to the prom with me, I would say, "We are the best gay couple for the night."

Why am I felt so offended for what my baby like? She is just being herself all the while and just let it be. Of course bad habits should be corrected and guided, but being a so-called semi-tomboy won't be categorized in the unhealthy lifestyle right. Mind you it is just semi=)

I felt angry when I saw all the words in her blog. I thought it would be a very bad habit. And worse, whenever my friends talk about this "why your gf so good in that?" and it really add some gun powder into my flame of anger. Sorry guys, you guys did not say anything wrong, just that it affect me when I get started to judge people on how they judge my gf. And I like FINALLY accepted that when I think of different people have different ways of expressing. Just like guys, we all shout all the foul words without even thinking we are actually cursing people's mothers when anger engulfed us. And why can't girls or your girlfriends do that? Just because you think guys can swear like a macho and girls swear are like *itch? If you can control you verbal manners then fine, you got the right to voice out, but don't say anything if you can't do the things that you wanted others to do.

My baby has obviously changed alot better just because of my naggings. Even now all you can see are those tiny puny little erhem erhem foul words in her blog. She thought guys with spectacles are blind. Hmmm.

Talking nag, there are times I was way too over. If you are her so-called loyal blog reader, you might notice this (most recent one) and about the calculator 1. It was not the message I wanted to convey, but fine la. Hehe. Talk also useless already 'cause the words you said can never be taken back. The words stuck in her mind which made her unhappy all the while. There are things that I didn't notice will hurt her but I did it. I really meant to be good. Trust me.

Love is easy and hard at the same time 'cause everyone is not perfect. I have learnt to accept like what my baby did. I have learnt to be patience and be cool. Love is not a textbook but it teaches you to appreciate, to care, to sacrifice, to adapt and to love. I would say, I never regret to send out the message on that night.

I'm really sorry for everything that i have done. Love you.

Love,
baby pork pie




Ps: I'm not good in writing as always=)

our 1st=)

if it's a kiss for my baby..
Why there is a tongue?
Weird huh?

Ps : Tomorrow need to work..can't write much here 'cause gonna catch up with my bed=) tomorrow only tell grandpa's story=) And btw if you guys din get wat i mean..just read the title..if i were wanna give 1 shot surprise..but is a super duper surprise..is it a good idea? haha=)