To the one who once said I was the reason :) Thanks.

Today was indeed crazy. I am so worn out. Last night was terrible, too many things were going on in my mind. From projects to test, and from presentation to interview. Yes, I am having my interview next week. Everything is coming to me at one time. I am just so tired. My priorities are in a mess now. When I was having test, I didn't even think that I was thinking for the answers. My mind was just wandering at somewhere. For the first time, I do not even care how I score in the test. Part of me has given up. Just need a small break. A small one is suffice. 

On a side note, sometimes I do think dogs are lovely creatures. No matter how many times you ignore them, they will always welcome you. At least, today a dog accompanied me when I was walking to the test hall. Hopefully she will be alright before anyone chases her out.

There are times you made bad decisions. And you just feel so regret that you wish to go back to the moment before you made the decision. But, that's not reality. Bad decisions perhaps are the worst thing you can encounter in your life, but they can be the best thing happened in your life. The bad decisions are just like failures. They taught you great lessons as if you burn your finger, then only you get the message that playing fire is dangerous. You knock on hard on your face on the floor and you will be more careful when you walk.

And yesterday was one of my bad days. It took me 3 years just to understand a simple concept of the relationship among people around you. 3 years just to know letting go is not that hard. And 3 years taught me that there is something more important that just holding up on a relationship. It doesn't matter how long does one take to understand, at the end, it matters more that you learn the lessons. 

Just a mistake, just a message and just a few words. They give impact to everything. You can't get back the stone that you threw and of course you can't take back the words that you said. What is more important now is the afterwards. Just give it up the thing you held on to for so long because of few lines? That's ridiculous. There are something far more important. And I shall make things better.

Today little part of my heart died. The feeling is so familiar, but it is certainly not the best feeling you want. 

It is like you've expected you gonna flunk your quiz or test, and in the end, you got low marks, you still get upset where the disappointment shadowed your preparation to expect the worst. At the end of the day, you will spend whole night thinking what you could have done at the 1st place.

3 years and now it goes back to the starting point. I guess that's a life cycle.